BY SARAH TUCKER
Diary Entry: 24th May 2024
Before our amazing holiday ☀️ I was doing these diary entries weekly.
Documenting my return from maternity leave.
Sharing openly and honestly about how it all felt.
But what I couldn’t share is that I was also privately navigating a buy out with my 50% shareholder.
It was a stark return after having a baby 😳
And so much happened in those first 12 weeks.
Legal meetings and financial meetings coupled with emotive conversations.
All whilst leading the team, trying to settle back into my role and attempting to keep things feeling stable.
It took its toll 🤯
So when our 2 week break to the land of magic 🇺🇸 came I worried I wouldn’t be able to switch off.
Nothing was finalised and I wasn’t where I wanted to be.
Thankfully the Universe knows best when it comes to timing.
And I couldn’t have needed that time more.
I escaped and made memories of a lifetime ✨
And I so needed that space.
I returned jet lagged but motivated, and a week later on 25th April 2024, the buyout completed.
Despite the press release, the enormous amount of hard work, the gut feeling I was trusting, and my previous excitement at chasing this day down….
When it actually completed and I was made the one and only owner of The Mortgage Mum, I felt…
Heavy 😔
Tired 🥱
Vulnerable.
Exposed.
Paranoid 😳
“Am I enough for this role?”
“Will these incredible women still want to be here?”
“Am I ready for this?”
“Who can I actually trust?”
“Will this make me less of a Mother?”
I have since realised that with every personal shift forward, vulnerability inevitably follows.
New level. New devil 😈
Your demons will always follow you through your successes.
Threatening to hijack your growth.
Making you question everything.
But it’s all part of the process.
Transition and “up-levels” are not pretty.
They require you to dig deep.
And all adjustments take time.
Even the best ones. The ones that are ultimately for your highest good.
With every major change comes a period of instability.
And that is ok.
In fact it’s important.
Essential even.
I’ve spent the last month struggling to find time to come up for air, let alone post 😶🌫️
But a few pennies have dropped into place this week, and I’ve been able to sense the weight of some big decisions shift ☁️
Tough conversations have been had. Heart led. Business minded.
And now we are about to enter month 2.
June will see us welcome:
– My amazing PA, Ella ✨
– 3 new brokers, all of which I am so excited to work with!
– A new Case Manager 🙏🏻
– 7 new protection writers, who are up-skilling through our training programme 📈
– And our first Graduate apprentice who will become our Digital Marketing Expert 💻
A lot can shift in a month so if you’re in the middle of feeling 🤯, keep pushing through it gently.
It won’t always feel this way.
And it’s leading you somewhere great 🙏🏻
