Diary Entry: 25th September 2024
The Diary of a CEO who just bought a business – Month 5 📝
5 months in.
That. Has. Flown.
Yet, so much has been felt and learned in that time.
The team and I have navigated so much change this year.
And people have a mixed relationship with change.
As humans, we sometimes turn away from it.
We resent it.
We get angry with it.
It stresses us out 😫
But the seasons show us that change is not just inevitable, but essential.
And you have to let things fall away for new fresh buds to seed 🍂
I am in my numerology year 7 – a year of analysis and reflection – before I enter my year 8 in 2025 (a year for success!).
You can feel lonely in a year 7.
Yet you also crave time alone 🙈
It’s confusing!
But that loneliness gives you time to look inward.
To decide how you feel about something.
And I am realising that this process is so important for me as a business leader.
I NEED to make time to sit with things ALONE.
To decide how I feel about something BEFORE I listen to the opinions of others.
But making that time for myself is hard.
There is not one minute of any day where I am not needed by someone.
I know some of you feel me here. Leaders, parents, children.
And do you know what, whilst that sounds utterly exhausting (it is!) I am actually SO grateful for that.
How wonderful to be SO needed?!
Or to FEEL so needed 🤔
I’ve been watching “Your Mum My Dad” 📺 recently, and empty nest 🪹 syndrome is real.
When we’re in this chapter, we never think it will end.
But it does. And it will.
And we’ll miss being so needed all the time.
We will miss feeling so important.
But for now, I need to be intentional about creating the space I need to make the right decisions for the business.
And dare I say it, for myself.
Because underneath the titles and the photos and the reels, I’m just a woman trying to be the best Mum I can be, be a good friend, keep fit and healthy, be happy and run a successful business.
And I am still trying to grow. Into my new role as CEO. Into my new position as Mum of 3. Into the woman I am slowly becoming.
Ultimately I’m just a woman trying to be happy.
Whilst also trying to make a difference.
Most of us just want to feel like we mean something to the world 🌎
And in months like the one I’ve just had, I sometimes ask myself “is this really making me happy?”
And some days I don’t know what the answer to that really is.
And that’s just me being honest.
So if you’re reading this and you resonate with my ramblings.
You are not alone.
And neither am I.
Even when we feel like we are.
Even when we might want to be.
And knowing that others feel the same way can really help.
So do reach out if you need to.
But in other, more upbeat news we are now entering one of my favourite seasons 🎃 🍂
And to kick it off with a bang we’ve had 3 new brokers and a protection writer join us today which always brings fresh energy and excitement 🚀
Not every season can be Spring and Summer.
But you can definitely enjoy the Autumn and Winter sunshine when it comes ☀️
So until next time. Spend time alone, but intentionally.
And listen to what the silence tells you. I certainly will.
From my heart to yours,
Sarah x
